goodbye september.. The last day of September, boohoo! Eh, I could careless, really. Just means its closer to All Hallows Eve and dare I say, mid-terms?! And me prolly finding out that Im too damn broke to travel down to LA for Christmas vay-k which means I wont get to see my daughter until sometime around April '05, can we all say WHAT THE FUCK!. Its so gonna suck ass. Man, Im applying my little heart out but theres only so much you can do when no ones interested in ya. I mean, really... some of these shit positions Ive applied for with the astounding qualities Ive got they should be taking #s for me to see if Id have any interest in them but alas kiddies, tis not working that way. Its quite the oppposite, really. As in-- for a shit job such as, a patient escort (I like the way that sounds, abit on the kinky side... like your going to perform all these sexual things for some cutie stuck in the hospital... or not.) it doesnt require much knowledge and why should it? Your just carting some schmuck down a corrider, simple enough right? Yes! So, why am I not getting a call back? I have no idea. Its not like theres some fucker out there who has more experience at carting ppl around the hospital than I... I would think its pretty much standard, anyone can do, no experience necessary. I so need a job though. My monies are about depleted and Ive got a 20$ gas bill daily thanks to school and some bills Im late on. Plus, as much as Ive complained about Christmas being spent down in LA, Id really like to go cause it'll mean spending time with my daughter. I miss her like crazy. But Im glad shes where she is, its working out for the best this way and shes become *alot* more active. Its nice to see her secure and sure of herself, once again. :) Ive been thinking though if Im not able to afford a trip down there than I'll at least send presents, lots of pressies! I dunno what I'll do here though, spend the holidays by myself cause I dont wanna play tag-along with Anths family. I mean, its the holidays, its supposed to be family and thats something I am not. So, I dunno... maybe I'll find some other lonely schmucks online this holiday season and we can be pathetic together.... Eh, I feel like I had more to say but I dunno what the hell that was now, so I guess this is where I sign off. |