dreams...
@ 4:31 pm on 18 January 04
For a person who never dreams I sure have been having some weird ass ones occur over the last few nights. I dont know usually I recall the nightmares, the ones you want to just forget ever happened.
The first dream I had Steve was in it. Alittle on Steve.
(Steve was one of my lil brother, Seth's bestfriends and they did everything together, even worked at the same place. Well, Steve's folks had kicked him out because he was messing around with pot and said he was getting out of hand, so my parents decided that was bullshit and took him in.
I cant recall how many days Steve stayed with my folks before they were both getting out of hand and my mom couldnt handle them. My dad worked grave shift so he wasnt at home to keep them in line so to speak. Mom got fed up one night and called the sheriff's dept on them both, they took off. Seth and Steve spent acouple nights sleeping in Seth's car until they called me.
So, I was 19, 20 at the time I let them move in (they were 16, 17). They did their own thing but Steve always, always was catching quick glimpses of me or following me with his eyes.
It bothered me at first but god he was so, so sexy. We would talk, flirt, stare, smile... you name it. He started spending less time hanging out with Seth and just staying around here with me and Summer. And god was he great with Summer.
My room is next to the bathroom and Steve would come out of there with only his pants on, beads of water dripping down his chest, his hair soaked and eyes sparkling. Cologne lingering from his body to my room. Oh. My. God.
I think it was at that moment I knew I had to have him. Heh, well I wont go into any further detail about that. *ahem*
We kept at it for quite sometime without anyone knowing but than one day Seth and Steve got into a huge fight and Seth kicked him out of *my* place. I told him to come back cause I knew he had nowhere else to go but he wouldnt. We would still get together every now and than. And than, he disappeared. Found out later he was living back at his grandmas and that was that.)
So, the dream had Steve in it and it started where we were both barely wearing nothing and flirting like crazy. I dont remember all the details of it but it ended in us having some of the wildest and best sex of our lives. And I woke up gasping for air, soaked in sweat. Its odd that I would dream of him like that, hell not all that long ago I found out he was sentenced to 15 yrs in prison....got busted selling Meth.
The other dream had Paul in it. Paul was mentioned afew entries back in my diary, a past bf of mine. It was where we had a life together, married, kids, the whole 9. And I was happy. And he was a great daddy, who wouldve known? lol
Who knows why I woke up so soon from that one I wouldve been curious to see what happened.
The last dream was this morning and I'll tell about it later. Too much detail to go into. I think Im gonna end here and finish up watching Pure Country. I'll be back in abit. :)
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