no title today folks....
@ 5:03 pm on 12 January 04
Listening: Narcotic Thrust- Safe From Harm (Club Mix)
Mmmkay, this is gonna sound abit nasty and rightfully so cause it is. Yes, it has to do with me in all my disgusting bodily glory. Youve been warned so exit now..... or be brave and come along for the ride.
For the past couple of days Ive been bleeding. And no, no this is not my lil monthly friend who annoys the hell out of me for the 2 day duration it lasts. Heh, god where am I going with this? Hmmm.
Alright, lets try this again. The past couple days Ive been bleeding and we *all* know it isnt my period. We all have that established? Good, moving along than.
The blood is coming from my ass. :(
Im not sure exactly what this means other than the possibilities of ulcers. And accompanying the blood has been killer stomach aches with dizzyness and feeling lightheaded.
Yesterday I was in the middle of playing a game of Monopoly with Summer when I felt like I was going to throw up and got all disoriented. We called the game quits in promise that I would play with her again later that evening with her dad.
I went to my room and laid down. I felt so, so cold too. My little Mokah snuggled under the covers with me and kept me warm. When Rog got back to the house I let him know about it cause it does scare me abit.
I continued sleeping until dinner was ready and I was feeling -k- so I ate my dinner loaded up with tabasco sauce (stupid I know, I clearly am not thinking). And, you guessed it. Stomach pains again. It felt like my stomach was in a huge twisted knot. *le sigh*
This morning there was more blood. It looked as if someone had taken a glass of water and released several droplets of red dye in there. Not a pretty sight.
I could go to the DRs and see what is wrong but I know the procedure, like what they would do and that thought doesnt thrill me.
Sorry, but a gloved finger attached to a DRs hand with freezing lube rammed in my ass doesnt appeal to me. And anyways I have no medical insurance so Im damned even if I did want a finger up my ass, which technically I could do for free in the comforts of my own home. If I go the emergency room route they cant turn me away for no insurance which would be a good thing but than it means recieving a bill that would equal several hundred dollars depending on the services Id need and general outcome of this wonderful event. :P
And once again the idea of a DRs finger up my ass, no matter how brief it would be doesnt excite me. Maybe its because I would just know him/her as DR ____? Hmmm. At least if they introduced themselves, like, "Im Dr. Johnson. But call me Frank".
Well, Frank now that were on a name to name basis, please feel free to shove your finger in my ass and tell me what exciting things you come across. Now, see? That doesnt sound so bad. Its more tolerable sounding already.
Oh, oh and theres the whole possibility of the ER DR wanting to shove tubing down my nose, into my throat and down in my stomach to see what the vial collects on the side of me. You know to see if there is in fact blood in my stomach fluids. The only plus I can think to this is I would essentially be deep throating a long ass tube via my nose instead of my mouth. And Id get a flavored throat numbing spray to make the whole ordeal more pleasent. Awww, aint that nice?
So, all in all I appear to be fucked.
I think my best bet will be just to see how I fair over the next couple days. And maybe, just maybe I'll ease off of the spicy foods for afew. Thinking about spicy foods makes my stomach do flip flops right now. Ugh.
I'll keep an eye out for loss of color in my nail beds and lips. I doubt I'll get that bad off.
On to other things, like Im now listening to No Doubt's cover of "Its My Life". I *love* this song so much and the way Gwen sings it. Ahh, I love Gwen. Her voice, her style, her look. Sexyness in every way. Gavin, your a lucky bastard. Heh. Anyways.
I got the letter to fill out for the magnet school so I'll toss that off in the mailbox lates today. The magnet school is having an Open House on 20 JAN, Im excited to see what thats all about. I hope she gets accepted. I think I find out in Feb or Mar. *crosses fingers for her*
Sum goes back to their newly renovated school on 14 JAN. The students of Washington have today and tomorrow off as teachers and parents move things back and set it all up. I think Im just as excited as Sum is to go back to the home school.
My gurl is gonna be sending me pics when shes online next. These are all the pics of men Ive been involved with. I was suprised she kept the pics but Im glad she did. I *always* show her who Im friends with or who Im interested in, so Im sure the disc is full o' men. Heh. Hell, she mentioned to me a dude who went by Toonist. And I was like, Oh my god! Jimmy. Ahh, he turned out to be a possessive asshole who didnt 'approve' of my piercings. He got the boot real quick.
So, I made acouple requests to my gurl if she had any pics of Jason or Shane, both from Canada.
I started to wonder though how many guys I had been involved with since, I dont know say Jr High. Gurlie seems to think 25 total. Hmm. Could be. In ways it sounds like alot but that covers quite a time span. I know chics who have had 25 in 2 months. So, I guess it all lies in your perspective of things. Riiiiiiight.
And I have a confession to make. I, Sarah am a sea munkeee murderer. Go ahead, take me out in cuffs.
I do have one survivoring munkee. I guess he doesnt mind starving and having a slow, painful death. Truth is, Rog spilled my tea and that resulted in the sea munkeee powdered vittles to become soaked in sugary sweetness and ruined. Im no sea munkeee expert so I had no idea what I could feed them but I knew there was no way I was gonna send off for more munkeee food for 3$ when it would be useless by the time it arrived. So, yes, the munkeees were damned from that moment on.....
Im thinking I should flush my remaining munkeee and send him of to The Mighty Mo where he would become an isty bitsy fishie snack.
I also managed to find a super cute bra and thong panty set. It puts the triple X in sexxxy and so I must have it.
Coach Callahan fired all the Asst. Coaches, even tossed out Ron Brown. :( Thats so not cool. Brown had been there for 17 yrs, was on during the Osborne Legacy. Sucks I tell you. And Pellini is out too. :( My guess is Oklahoma State Univ. will snag him up since they were interested in him. Gill was the only one Callahan was interested in keeping and Gill hasnt rendered his decision. I hope he stays there at NU. If this change to the program doesnt suck ass I dont know what does.
And.... Reign? Im glad were cool. Just the way you worded it made it sound like I had pissed you off, glad that wasnt the case. :)
Alrighty, kiddies Im outta here. Lates.
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