fucked up when he went away.....
@ 2:41 am on 15 March 2008
Remember kiddies how I was venting in my diary about my friend, the one who I wasnt sure what I should do about it? We'll, seems I blew it. To an extent anyway. Allow me to explain.
Eric and I have been friends for a long time, years... and I stumbled upon a diary entry he had wrote and I snapped because of course it was about me and how I did him wrong in other aspects of our friendship. Naturally, I emailed him back equally bitching at him and how dare he do this/say that kind of stuff.
We'll when he emailed me back I was still in pissed off mode and didnt give a shit. I read it, processed it in my head, thought and bitched and than held onto the email.... and eventually read it again and than said the hell with it and deleted it. I didnt even respond.
So, time has gone by, maybe a couple months at best (alright, so its been a lot of time) but I miss him. I miss us being friends. I hate that this even happened. I hate that I was so quick to jump the gun and didnt even care to read the date he wrote the entry (a couple years back, yeah I know... pitaful!!).
So first and foremost I wanted to call him and apologize but amidst our fight I deleted his number out of my phone so calling was out of the question. I was going to leave a note on here for him but it looks like he ditched his diary, too. I tried to contact him via his email but guess what? Its gone too.
What the fuck am I gonna do now? I have no way to contact him, to apologize, to hopefully put this behind us and remain friends. Nothing.
There is nothing I can do to make this ok. And I have cost myself a friend.
:(
Eric, if your still out there and by some chance read this, please, please email me or give me a call. I am *so* sorry and I really want to fix things between us if its possible. I miss you!
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