hurts Listening Juvenile- Slow Motion Gah... I havent heard this song in a long while. Does it bring back special memories? Hell yeah it does.
I havent been updating like my usual self. I guess I just havent had much to say and even if I have had things of importance to say I dont know if those things are the things I should be throwing up on here. Than again, its not like a big secret or anything.
Honestly, Im depressed. I hate being pregnant. Sure. It was fine 10 yrs ago with my daughter and it should be fine now... but its not. I hate all the changes that are happening around me. I hate that Im gaining all this weight, that I eat everything in sight and than within a few minutes Im hungry again. I hate that my boy went to his old position for more money to help us all out. I hate that hes not at home with me at night to hold me as I drift off to sleep. And I wish I was married to the boy but Im beginning to realize as much as I want that, that it wont be happening. Hes been engaged twice and both times the gurls left him. Both times he proposed early on. One gurl was only 6 months into their relationship, the other only 3-4 months... and here we are, almost 2 yrs into our relationship. It confuses me that he wanted them in his life but not me? It makes me feel like Im good enough to be by his side and be with him through some very rough times and even be pregnant with his child and thats it? I just dont get it. It hurts.... Anyways, Im outta here. |