heres a title... The boy got nicely paid so we went out and blew 200$ over the weekend. That's always nice. I dont suspect once the baby is here we'll be doing all of that stuff.
Friday night we went shopping and than went and saw Star Wars: Revenge of the Sith. I love Star Wars and althiough I didnt see episodes 1 & 2, 3 did not disappoint at all.
Saturday we ended up waking up at noon. Thats a major event at our place. No one ever wakes up that early. We ate and than hopped in the car to Newport, KY (tis right on the border of KY and OH) and went to the Newport Aquarium. Gah. Just to get into that place for 3 people cost 50$. Im not so sure it was worth all that money but it was fun and we all got to see some cool marine life. On Sunday, it was Fathers Day so I went and got the boy acpl small things. A guitar poster hes been eyeing for awhile and a HUGE NY style cheesecake and a fish. Heh, yup Im a dork and so is he. Friday night the boy and I got into it a bit since we rarely get to spend any time together since him taking the position at work. I hate him working 3rd shift. Our time has gone from a lot to a little and it sucks big time. I keep finding myself being very insecure and doubtful of the relationship or his feelings towards me. I actually wrote him this note and left it on the PS2 and than just before he got home from work I ran down the stairs and scooped it up so he wouldnt see. How loser-ish is that of me? I keep thinking if he knows things would be better but than at the same time I know some of things I said could very well hurt him and I dont want to do that. He doesnt deserve that but at the same time do I deserve to be miserable? Gah. Life sucks sometimes. I just miss how we used to be.... it doesnt seem fair. I know I need to get over it and a lot of the doubts and whatnot come from the stupid hormone changes but I sure do hope this shit ends soon.... its driving me crazy!!!
And sex. I miss it. Since my daughter has been down here and hes gone back to 3rd shift any alone time is *POOF* gone. Pregnant or not Im still a very sexual creature and I know hes wanting it but alas no time or hes too tired. What a life I lead. I sure didnt expect all this lack of/changes at 27. Blah! I say Alright. Im sick of writing in here. Adios. |