catching up Last year when I moved to KY, my boy had an awesome job with good pay. A friend of his went behind his back, caused trouble.. resulting in the loss of the boys kickass position. He's excited about it but Im still not there. Anthony will go back to 3rd shift this Sunday night. No more laying on his chest, him holding me close with his arms wrapped around me, no more him by my side in bed at night, no more waking up and seeing him snuggled up next to me or momentarily laughing at the piles of pillows on top of his head to hide the faintest hint of light coming in from the window. Gah!!! Its gonna suck so much! :(
The $$ will be good for when the baby comes and things we need but I still hate the fact that Im losing my time with him. It makes me teary-eyed just thinking about it. We had a long talk the other night about him taking that job and I totally lost it. Crying. Thinking nothing but the worst. Wondering why the thought of marriage is bothering me so much. Like, me wanting to be married. We talked about it a little bit more. I think Im gonna look into schools and take some classes and put those credits towards my goal. I wont be going back to school after that until the baby is 1.... seems like a long ways away but Im sure it'll go by quick. I do need something to occupy my time so Im not so bored/depressed. Id say that while my life is good its not exactly how/where I wanted it to be at this current moment. I guess Ive been feeling a bit resentful of this pregnancy. Everyone says its normal but is it? Anthonys been super with me though. I cant complain. And hes gonna be such a good dad to the baby and Summer. :)
Speaking of Summer... shes gets here tomorrow!!!! Flying in at 1p. And it was *so* cute. She asked me to ask Anthony if he would be there to pick her up. I asked him and he said he would. So before we goto the airport tomorrow, hes calling in acpl hours late so he can be there to get her. :) On Sunday, the day before Memorial Day, we went to Morehead and planted the rose bush on Anthony's dads grave. Its gonna be so pretty when it blooms. Now, were looking into a nice headstone. Stuff is a lot cheaper here in KY but still those things are pricey! Yeouch. I think... no I dont think... I know when the boy gets home tonight hes gonna be molested, heh. ; ) |