i guess somethings i will figure out in time but i do know one thing.... Well kiddies the dreaded move is in progress. I did most the packing and the boy did all the packing and taking it over 2 blks, heh. Than I had to help him move and carry our 55 gal tank o' fish. Damn, did that suck ass. Amazingly you can get a lot of shit in a 4dr car that you cant a sporty 2dr, heh.
When I spoke to Fay this morning she asked if I knew the results. I told her and her voice sunk down low, she said "Oh, honey I could cry" Yeah, I know how she felt. She wasnt the only one. Telling the boy was hard. Seeing his facial expression so hopeful and than crushed tore my heart in two. It was awful.
I have no idea the thoughts that run through my head. I didnt think I would be so disappointed in my results. I guess I just wanted to be pregnant so much the more I thought about the possibilities. When I sit here and really think about it, I get teary-eyed and so upset. I shouldnt feel like this but I do and I cant help it. I feel like Ive been robbed. It sucks. I know we can try and try and I know all will be well in a couple days but still, right now it hurts.
Anyways, I dunno. Ive got some thinking to do and much more moving. You know tonight, Fay told Anthony to tell me she loved me. You have no idea how much I loved hearing that from her. *beams*
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