Is there potential?
@ 1:43 pm on 26 February 2005
The night before last, the boy and I were at it again, heh. It hadnt been that long and he hit it like he hadnt had sex in years. Fuuuck, did it feel good!
Anyways, when we finally finished I lay there resting my head on his chest, giving him lil butterfly kisses on his face and stomach while 'playing' with him. We were talking about all sorts of stuff like, the fact that I could be pregnant right now. And than he asked me if I had noticed any changes or thought I could possibly be.
My head rested on his chest, thinking how to answer that. Partially due to fear & him freaking out or him not having much to say. Dont get me wrong-- we both agreed upon trying to get me pregnant but I think no matter what, initially a gurl is a bit spooked by what reaction her guy could have-- even if he is thrilled beforehand.
So, in the meantime he can see my hesitation and tells me, "You dont have to hesitate or be scared, just tell me..."
I told him, "I have been feeling sick to my stomach and naseous every day for the past week now, I think."
And he was thrilled. He says, "So theres a chance right now, you could be pregnant?"
I said, "Maybe. Maybe this is all in my head and I just feel sick because...."
He didnt seem to think that my getting sick was just because. Now, some close friends of mine are asking me when I will have my period in March because they know if I miss than I am more than likely pregnant. I do hope that I am. I wont be totally crushed if Im not but in a way I will be. I think that makes sense.
Needless to say, the boy is thrilled with the idea of possibly becoming a dad.
As we lay there that night he told me his mom is always asking when were gonna have a baby because she wants another grandchild. I didnt know she talked to him about all of this. I seriously did just think it was me she had been approaching about it. Heh.
Anyways, thats all I wanted to report. I just want to keep a record of these things so that if I am Ive got something to look back on and if Im not, well, Ive still got something to look back on. : D
Have a good weekend, kiddies! ♥
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