all cried out Listening: Body Head Bangers- I Smoke, I Drink
We'll, I flunked my Eng. midterm. I figured as much cause I dont grasp the concept behind all that crap. So now I've got to see about doing some of it over to better my grade. SUCK!
We (the boy and I) went to his parents on Sunday. I sort of wish I hadnt gone cause Im becoming waaaay to attached to his parents, esp. his mom. It also made me very teary-eyed on the drive home because some of the things I observed (his mom sitting in her chair with Anth sitting on the armrest and her saying, "I love you so much, honey" and him telling her that he "loved her too" and than embracing.)I'll never be fortunate enough to have that from my own parents esp. my mom... and it hurts. Really hurts.... I know I cant get close to his parents because I dont want to hurt his mom or myself in the end should we split up. Things are still good between us but sometimes the things he says makes me wonder 'its only a matter of time...' esp. since he wants to goto college (which he should and he better, dammit!) and possibly do a pre-med thing and could be required to live on campus. That leaves us nowhere to be quite honest. So, Im pretty torn right now. I think Im all cried out, too. In happier news, Anth and I are prolly making a trip to NE or St. Louis to get my daughter in Dec. Im pulling her out of school a week early from their Christmas Break so we (me, Anth and Sum) can have alittle time together before we do our seperate thing for the holidays. Im excited. : ) I hope everyones been doing good. I'll get back to you all soon, I promise. : ) xo |