changes are coming Listening: Ian Van Dahl- Where Are You Now Im sure all of you remember the entry from Friday morning where I bitched and ranted about re: the boy and his antics and how sick of it all I was....
Well, early Saturday morning around 2a he calls me from his cell telling me hes on his way home because hes not feeling well. I ask (already knowing the answer) if he plans on laying down or playing his online game when he gets home. He doesnt answer and I said, "uh huh, I knew it" and he laughs slightly.
So, while I had him on the phone because he clearly planned on talking to me until he was home I decided I would bring up the things I mentioned in my previous entry to him. Worst he could do is get pissed. "I spend time with you" "No, you dont. Your idea and my idea of spending time together is very different" Silence.
We continued discussing things which equalled me doing all the talking and him listening. I told him I didnt just move here to goto school that I also moved here to be with him. And I told him that if he was going to always sit back and play a game and spend time with me only when it suited him than what was the point of me even being here?
I decided I should ask him if he had any complaints about me. "Now would be the time to mention them", I said, "otherwise Im gonna continue on with you." We both went to bed and woke up around noon Saturday morning. I was already out of bed when he awoke and saw me and smiled asking me what time it was. I told him alittle after 12 than he got up. Went downstairs to watch the College Football game (NE vs. PA), he sat with me for awhile even though he hates sports and than next thing I know hes disappearing upstairs and than I glance over and hes got the dirty laundry. I laugh and said, "what? Your going to do the laundry" I told him to leave it-- since really I dont mind doing it. Than he says, "lastnight you bitched to me about not doing anything around here, now that I am your telling me to leave it". Hehe, I couldnt argue there. I laughed and said, "I know, I know... but I like the laundry, how about you find something else to do?" So, he looks around at the 2 sink fulls of dirty dishes and decides he'll do that but no dishwasher soap, so he moves on to wanting to mop the floor but, heh, we have no mop either. Just a swiffer thing-a-ma-bob that he doesnt like. So, once again he moves on to the downstairs bathroom (mainly his) and starts to clean that. Im still sitting on the couch watching NE kick some PA tail in amazement over the boy. He eventually did go upstairs and play his music for awhile and than played his online game. He was getting ready for work and was ready to leave. Normally he would be at the backdoor and tell me he was leaving and he'd be gone telling me he loved me on the way out. We had only done the kiss-before-you-leave-for-work thing acouple times. This time he came up to me and told me he was leaving and bent down to give me a kiss. :)
Really, yesterday was quite the improvement. I just hope it continues. Thats one good thing about Anth though... everytime Ive had some insecurity or whatever when it comes to our relationship and Ive brought it up to him hes made the effort and changed it. No questions asked. No complaints. I told my gurlie about all this and she said, "well you know he loves you or he wouldnt have listened and done what he did today" And, Im learning too. Afterall this is my first *real* time living with my bf, in another state far away from any friends or family. And, Im learning to open up more to him. Im always worried what hes gonna think of me but maybe I shouldnt so much cause obviously hes trying to make this work and I need to do the same on an emotional level cause I know he needs that from me. Im trying, guys. So, all in all? This weekend although different from last weekend was pretty kickass in its own way, dontcha think? Well, kiddies... its close to 6a, yup it took me forever to write this but I wanted to before I forgot. :) ♥ Sar |