i wouldnt
@ 10:33 am on 26 August 2004
Listening: Plummet- Cherish The Day
Mmm, I *love* this song so much. I like just about all of Plummet's songs. Anyway, would it be cruel of me to say that my daughter is driving me crazy?
Every time I turn around shes on my heel, she follows me around--even to the bathroom. And I became annoyed lastnight when she would say something and pause for like 3 minutes before she continued on with the story simply because I didnt say, "uh huh" so she could continue on... needless to say a story that shouldve taken all of 4 mins to tell turned into a 10 min chore. Gah!
Dont get me wrong I love her to death and I did reach my breaking point. I got her tucked into bed and no sooner do I go downstairs to talk to my mom, I turn around and theres Summer. Grrr. Before I can even say, "Why are you out of bed?" She bursts into tears, starts carrying on how she misses her dad and Mupps (my brindle pit, Junior). I just couldnt deal with her at that very moment so I told her to go back upstairs to bed and Id be up in a minute or two.
I have no idea what was going through my head but I found her crying and the way it sounded about her going on about the dog and her dad to be damn funny and was hysterical in laughter. I tried going upstairs and had to grab ahold of the railing because I laughed so hard I almost lost my balance. No worries... she didnt hear me and I regained my composure before I went into the bedroom. I held her, hugged her, told her everything was -k- and than she drifted off to sleep.
Yesterday was her first day of school. Its crazy how many people are packed in that school. Traffic was backed up for acouple blocks and to top it off all the preppy parents in la~la land had congregated right outside the front doors to the school. Madness. I decided when I picked her up getting there 40 mins before school let out would ensure me a decent spot and not have me trapped when I was ready to leave. Yeah.
Every other fucker had the same idea. :/
I finally got ahold of the lady about Diesel (the cute pup the boy and I want in IL) but getting ahold of the boy has been a task in itself. Ive barely heard from him and the times Ive called have been met by his voicemail, sometimes Ive left msgs, other times out of frusteration (so I dont say something stupid) Ive just hungup. Blah!
Its just been abit frusterating since Ive been here and I could really use someone outside of it all to talk too. Ahh well, I'll deal like I always do.
I miss him. Alot. I wish I could be more open with my feelings to him. I wish I could wave a magikal wand over myself and change everything.
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