how i love thee Did I ever mention my love for Bath & Body Works? Cause if I didnt, Id like to confess my love for it right... NOW. I had such a shitty sleep, kept waking up every couple hours and than Id look at the clock and see the time and say to myself, 'only X amount of hours til Anthony gets home' and drift back to sleep. Luckily though I slept til almost 1p. Sooo nice and that hasnt happened in so long. Thank you, Mr. Sandman....
I checked the mail the other day and there was a letter from Summer in there. I thought that was really cute. My first little letter from my lil oooh mouse. :D Really what kind of shit is that? First off, shes only 9. Shes not a lady, shes a little gurl who wants to express herself and have her own identity, her own personality, her own self. I think thats great. I dont see anything wrong with the clothes, manicues/pedicures... I like alil luxury myself but thats just insane making her be someone/something she has no desire right now to be. And what sucks even more is mom 'grooming' her for boys. I could give a shitless how some boy thinks a gurl should be, is she not her own person to decide? Cause I'll be damned if Sum turns out to be one of those gurls where she doesnt have a brain in her head, doesnt think for herself and doesnt do what makes her happy. Busting her ass to constantly make the guy happy and to have his permission/approval for things. Uh uh. Nope. I will not have that. Shit, thats certainly one of the contributing factors to some abusive relationships..... So, I got off abit but she isnt happy and doesnt want to be there. I feel so bad cause I feel like its my fault. Bringing her here, getting her room all decorated, getting her hopes up only to in the end send her back to a place she doesnt want to be. I know she looked at it like I was punishing her and I hate that too. You could tell the desperation of her wanting out of there in her letter. I always can pick up on someones emotions without them saying a word to me about it. Grrrr!!! Anyway, tis all she wrote for now. Ive got a race to watch :D Go JR!! (Actually, JRs, heh). xoxox |