stupid fucking ppl that i have to call parents... Listening: Paul Van Dyk- For An Angel Thanks gurl for calling me and letting me know about the weather here and in KS.
She called me all upset thinking I was in harms way regarding the tornados that were springing up earlier tonight. The main one I was concerned about was in KS. In the towns my daughter, aunt and grandpa happened to be in.
I had tried calling my aunts cell and left acouple msgs cause I was abit panicky about Sum being amongst that shit and of course knowing how she is. I talked to her once they got back to the hotel and she was fine- just needed some reassuring. :)
And yeah, I was upset earlier for other reasons. Reasons like my parents. Their shit is really starting to get to me. I can feel myself getting sick from the stress. Im not one to worry or be stressed but all this is making me insane. She (mom) seriously wants to run a background check on Anthony. Have yall ever heard anything so completly crazy and fucked up? She called earlier wanting to know his middle name and DOB. First off, thats something I will *never* just give to her because its none of her business. And theyre (both parents) are just getting extremly retarded about this.
Than mom threatened me if I didnt give her what she wanted to know she would call him herself. Half the time shes bluffing when she says that shit so I was like, fine call. I really dont care. If she wants to call, make an ass out of herself and show the world how entirely fucking crazy they are so be it... dont let me stop you, your on a roll already. Im wondering though if she'll actually call.
Than I get threatened with the whole custody thing. That scares the hell out of me more than anything. I know right now they wouldnt have any leverage against me really because Ive done nothing to my daughter for someone to decide to remove her from my care. Not that my mom wouldnt make up some bullshit to 'help' her because taking Sum away would be the icing on the cake for her... ultimate defeat against me. Why do I have to fight for MY child anyway? I dont. Im so torn. I needed someone to talk to so bad earlier but at the same time I didnt want to talk to anyone. I wouldve loved to have gone to my Grandma and sort it all out but with the weather being so crazy here I couldnt.... I did the next best thing. Cried myself to sleep. Heh, what a fuckin loser Im becoming. Oh well, at least with sleep I dont have to think or worry. Sharon called and I talked to her for afew since I was trying to watch a forensics show on Discovery. Sharon was playing some Lion King quiz thing and since Im a sucker for quizzes I fell for that too. I ended up being Timon. Guess its abit better than a hyena. *shrugs*. Want some irony? Here goes. Antwon (Sharons babys dad) ended up being Pumba. Heres the irony. I cant stand Antwon but like in Lion King terms, we'd be bestfriends. Sick, cruel world. Blah. I also ran down to the PO to send out the deposit for the electricity. The boy should be all set for the 1st. At least he better or else... and since hes moving his stuff in this weekend, well today, he should be getting the keys so he can mail me that before I head out. :) Back to the folks thing~ I may just end all communication with them. I prolly shouldve done it a long time ago anyway. My situation, how Im treated by them WILL NEVER CHANGE. Why make an effort? I guess I try so hard cause I dont want to be a disappointment but I know that I am. Nothing I can do to help that though... Im a product (and a fucked up one at that) of their doings. Anyway, I think Ive bitched enough even though I know I could go on forever. Someone, anyone out there PLEASE have a good weekend for me. Drink yourself into oblivion. Im out. xo |