rocky morning Listening: The Yeah Yeah Yeahs- Maps Im so addicted to this song it aint even funny. Anyway, moving along to other stuff.
Got afew msgs from the boy this morning and they royally sucked ass. They were moreless saying things didnt feel right and that maybe we should call it quits. After reading it acpl times (I guess to let it sink in) I wasnt angry or upset but I was hurt. Of course all sorts of things were running through my mind. Both of us not being able to talk to one another definetly was a problem cause it made us doubt each other, what we were doing... everything, really. And there was the whole thing with making sure I really want this and want him which I do, always have. How I feel for him will never change.
I know that this move will be awkward at first but thats to be expected. Im gonna be in totally new surroundings. It'll take some adjusting and I may even freak out lol... but thats part of what has to happen to move on to the next stage in life... and really abit of freaking out for someone so incredibly wonderful seems well worth it, dontcha think?
So, after we talked about alot of things that definetly were bothering us and decided yeah we do want this. And yeah, alot of it is nerves... we got back to 'hustle mode'.
DOMESTICATION!!! AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
Cause no doubt it'll be my lil excited ass doing the laundry. Heh, oh what have I become?? :( Im gonna call the lady tomorrow (today) and see if its still avail. Cross some eyes, fingers and toes that it is. And that we can get in there. (NTS: Call cable co. and see about ISP). My asthma is kicking my ass once again too. The hot ass weather, cold air conditioner... going from one extreme to the next is causing me grief. I never really paid attention to what asthma does really. Kind of interesting tho... your lungs fill up w/excess fluids and suffocate you. I always just thought it was lack of air with the bronchial tubing cause thats what everyone says does it but apparently not the case. And if I happen to be wrong than just pretend you never read that part. Really. Oh, and lastly... we have a new pet. Yup, this makes pet #585143246549982 in the house. Its a hermit crab. Sum named him Rebel. We threw some of her frog habitat stuff in his new home.. so hes got himself a surfboard and a palm tree. Its cute for a crab I suppose. I was hoping it'd come out of his shell, but no0o0 he had to be a stubborn bastard. I did take a pic tho :D Mmmkay, Im gonna go try and the call the boy again... no one answered when I called the first time, well try again. Sweet dreams... |