Me, bitter? Never! Listening: J & R Project- Keep It Up
For once Im not sure what to even write about. Everything has seemed to reach this plateau and now theres no forward movement. Yeah, Im talking about things or lack of things regarding our relationship. I have my parents, other familia, and friends all asking me when Im leaving NE. Before I had a solid answer now all I can do is meet their questions with a shrug and look of uncertainity because even I dont know the answer anymore. Its real frusterating. My aunt today said to me, "Have you heard from Anthony?" "No" *look of shock* "Oh, Nooo! We'll I hope he just didnt ditch you. Hes not that type is he??" "No, I dont think so. I know hes got alot to deal with esp. with the new position and all the hours, etc" (Meanwhile, I wonder if there is any truth to the words my Aunt uttered and hope what I say convinces her otherwise) "Well, I sure hope not. I'll goto KY and kick his butt personally" *Gives her the whatever look and walks off* I could email him but Im figuring he isnt online ever anyway so how is he gonna get that? B to the L to the A to the H. BLAH!
And I was supposed to hang out with Eric today (yesterday, Im on a 3rd shift workers schedule) but that fell to the wayside cause Sum was really sick and crappy feeling this morning.
I really could use a change of scenery/plans. Shit is getting me down and throwing me in a bad mood. Its easy for me to put on that fake smile and go through the day with everyone thinking my life today is great when it sucks beyond suckage.
Ive been somewhat occupying my time doing web designs. I made one for a fellow DLand member, carnaldesire. Its basic but simplicity is good. Sometimes it can be the perfect thing.
I decided I might as well quit sponging off my ISP and using a damn longwinded url. Couldnt use my raivin.com cause some biatch (yeah, just abit resentful, heh) already snagged it. I just hope they realize I was the one who came up with that spelling first. Imitators! Oh, and this quote today. Ha! What a riot. Check it.
"Happiness sneaks in through a door you didnt know you left open" |