hard to say goodbye....
@ 12:18 am on 26 April 2004
Delerium- Truly (Signum Club Mix)
Today wasnt too bad. Rog ended up going through alot of his things since he's leaving at 9am tomorrow (Monday, 26th) and I figured since I'll be leaving soon too I might as well sort our stuff out. The majority of his things will be staying here until he gets back in 5 months time. He's got his duffle bag all filled up with everything he may need for his carnival journey.
Everyone has been wishing him the best and lots of luck. He seems to be sad but in good spirits due to the fact that someone finally gave him a chance. I know hes gonna miss Sum and everyone around here. I know hes definetly gonna miss his gurl, Ratna.
Sum seemed -k- when he explained everything thats going on. We told her when he applied but ya know lil kids they dont take things seriously and she prolly didnt expect this job to come through... well that hit her tonight and she became quite upset. I feel so bad for her. I gave her the option to stay home from school tomorrow if she wanted so she could adjust and deal the best way she could for the time being.
Seeing her all upset and crying made me think back to the previous times Rog has left to be with some chic from the 'net and how hard it was on her but this time its different, its for a job that he really needs. She knows that. I just wonder how it will affect her when I take off to KY? Thats what Im so worried about.
Id like to get myself settled out there first and than bring her but at the same time I feel like screw it and just bring her when I go and than another part tells me, go down and have some time for you and Anthony, see how that goes, bring Sum down for a month or so during the Summer, see how that goes and if all is cool... move her in. No doubt it would be difficult for awhile but it would sure be nice to have her there and have her know her parents arent 'ditching' her so to speak, ya know?
Life sure can be difficult and suck, cant it? *sigh*
My Talla-DALE-ga race was so damn good until the last 5 laps than it sucked. SUCKED!
Why, you ask? Because they threw a caution out with 5 laps to go and froze the field. In other words, even though Jr was leader at the time of the caution flag coming out, they gave it to Gordon and of course dragged their asses to use up as many laps as possible due to 'debris' from Vickers spin out.
In other words, they used the damn debris excuse for Gordon to win the race under the fuckin' caution. BOOs were heard allover the grandstands as it was announced over the PA. Yup, total bullshit cause the fans all knew it shouldve been Jrs win.
Moments after the announcement all the fans were throwing food, beer cans, pop cans etc out onto the track to express their disgust at them not finishing under green & for giving it to Gordon.... it couldve been a 2 lap shootout, but no0o0o0o! Nascar bastards! Grrrrr!!!
Anyway, I prolly should get off here and get some sleep I got to be up early so I can drop Rog off at the place and so we can say our goodbyes. Damn, thats gonna be a toughie. Im already tryin to hold back tears. :(
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