stay for awhile...
@ 3:18 am on 21 March 04
Greetings all....
I havent been in much of a writing mood. Who cares about what goes on daily in my life? Half the time I dont even care.
Ive spent more time online these last two weeks than I care too. I wish I wouldve just hired some fuck to do the coding for me and save me the grief of doing it all. Im making lots of progress but still, its frusterating, repetitive and I think, no I know, Im losing my mind from it all.
I guess the good thing is in the meantime Ive been listing shit on ebay and have had great response. I increased the prices this second time around and suprisingly people are still scooping it up. The only thing that irritates me is these people asking me what size they should order. Grrr! I have no idea people, its your body not mine. I have no idea what your measurements are or what size you should order. Sheesh.
I started to look for new distributors in addition to the one Im already using. I want as much variety as I can get. I found great stuff by Shirley Of Hollywood, so now Im going to be selling that line along with several other lines. The goto-guy for this region is Randy. He called me acouple mornings ago and told me quite abit of informationd which was greatly appreciated for a newbie on this biz adventure. Hes sending the catalogs out soon.
Randy also mentioned this lingerie market show going down in Kansas City, MO on April 3-5, so yeah I think Im gonna head down there and check it out. Should be cool and honestly I could use abit of a getaway. Know what Im sayin'?
I went to the park with Junior and tested him on his obediance training. Im impressed because Im the one who trained him on my own with my own methods. Interesting. Hes such an awesome dog. Everyone should own pit bulls :)
Silly me heard frogs ribbiting in the creek nearby and decided I would try to catch a frog. I used to love doing that.
When my folks moved into their newly built home in an undeveloped area, a creek was part of our wide open backyard and you could just go down there and see frogs hopping around like no big deal and myself and my brother, Seth would see how many we could catch. Id also catch crickets so I could feed the frogs and my tarantula I owned at the time. So, yeah.... I was unsuccessful in my attempts to catch any frogs. Made me sad...see :(
Im missing the boy terribly. I talked to him late Thurs nite. He came home from work cause he was getting sick. :(
Luckily he had the next couple days off. We never get to talk as much as we'd like. And starting Monday his job has added 30mins to the shift. Fuckers.
All I can say is this has to be a test from up above. A test on my patience, or lack thereof. Im just not a patient person. If Im driving I want to be at my destination like yesterday. If Im standing in a line I want to be through it and on my way as quick as I can. And with past relationships (like Brad, we were together twice) I ditched him both times because he was always too busy for me. I mean anytime for me. Sometimes we literally went months before talking all of 15 minutes. He was a marine, so you can see how that worked. But I didnt have the patience to make it stick, to work on it and be patient.
With Anthony, its different. I dont know why though. When we first started talking it was every now and than and as we became closer we spent every waking minute talking. If we didnt get to for some odd reason we both felt like a ritual had been broken and we'd message each other like crazy. And even when we became a couple it was still the same and always has been until the past couple months. It honestly sucks and I hate it like you would not believe. There are so many times I have doubts and wonder why I waste my time but than I think of the reward and whats upcoming in my life....
I guess its the upcoming events and knowing that Im going to finally be where I belong that makes me tolerate the lack of communication for the time being cause I know it wont always be like this. We'll be together. There will be something to look forward too every single day.... so yeah I guess I can deal another month or so of this temporary hell. I just hope this is my last test before I have all the good I can handle.
The only thing Im dreading is leaving 'home'. This place is all Ive ever known, its all Ive ever wanted to know. I know where everything is. Its all familiar. Most of all, Im going to HATE to say goodbye to my little gurl. Right off I cant take her with me although the thought has crossed my mind more than once.
I know she will be following soon but it wont be soon enough. Im lost without her, crazy as that may sound. Shes what keeps me going. I strive to be my best for her and I will make her proud. I wont be a letdown.
Anyway, enough of that. We (Rog and I)have Sum's birthday to plan out and presents to get. I still have details to iron out with my mom before we send the invites. Not to mention cake, decorations and party favors. I always go all out and this year is not an exception. Shes so excited to have a slumber party. Heh. Too cute.
Anyways, I should get some sleep now. Nite.
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