The Accommodator
@ 10:47 am on 14 December 03
Today: Sarah stops being lazy and does an update.
World Response to that: Rejoicing.
What the fuck ever, eh? lol. Anyways, so yeah a weekend recap. I dont really remember what I did or didnt do. Im sure most of it was spent in sickness and self pity. Mmmkay, so I doubt it was that bad Im just being abit drama queen-ish.
So, everything between Rog and I have calmed down. I think I mentioned this already, no? Cant remember. But Anthony and I were still having our arguments and that sucked.
I was really getting to the point where I just wanted to say fuck it because to me all the petty arguing wasnt worth it. I do my best to understand where hes coming from with his views but I think he tends to think too much about the unknown when it comes to us.
There are going to be so many things that we both are going to have to adjust too but it doesnt make it better when you start getting all weird. Heh, not to mention some of the words he uses to get his view across suck.
This last argument had me thinking he didnt even want me in his life anymore and of course me dwelling on his words and getting teary-eyed didnt help.
Shit like that tends to scare the hell out of me because I assume Im doing something wrong and I freak out wondering why yet again am I not good enough to have someone just love me.
Eh, things like that just really, really fuck with me and I told him that. I still want him to come to me for whatever he has on his mind, still want him to be blunt and come at me with his feelings..... but I want those doubts/fears/whatever they are to be valid and not just *shrugs* I dunno, doubts. The mind sure can be an evil son-of-a-bitch when your stressed, sick, overworked, etc.
I was thinking he was jealous there for awhile... mmm, I think he is jealous to an extent though. I dont necessarily think its a bad or good thing. Just as long as it doesnt go into a raging type jealousy cause I do flirt and I do talk to guys and I have fun like that. I dont take it seriously and I would never do anything to hurt my relationship. I wouldnt do anything to lose what I know Im fortunate and lucky enough to have.
Weve talked about it and all is fine between us. We just needed to get some things cleared up. Now just dont freak me out thinking Im losing you cause I would not know what to do with myself if that happened. I dont even like thinking about it.
Lastnight, I went out with my aunt and grandpa to look at Christmas lights. We'll the few we saw anyways. Heh, werent too many places lit when we went even though it should have been.
We went through this drive-thru Nativity Scene though and that wouldve prolly been the highlight.
First off, I couldnt help but be hysterical with laughter at the people "acting" out these various happenings from the Bible. Not because it had to do with Church but because it was so damned cold outside. Im talking COLD! Brrrrr!!
It was nice to go through there and read about the scenes and just, I dunno how to describe it... but I felt so calm and at ease. Like all the chaos going on in my life just ceased to exist at that very moment in time. You have no idea how nice it felt. How peaceful I felt.
This is a totally random thought but I hope when I die that I go out like that. Calm. Peaceful. At ease.
When I got back to the house here I debated about sleeping or eating. Instead I did neither and called J since I promised I would. We talked about crazy off the wall things and sex. Basically one upping each other lol
Its a strange friendship we have. Hes a fellow piscean (like Chris) so I do feel like we have that common bond because were both into the same things and his life, I can relate to.
Its nice to have someone who understands you without even having to say a word. In alot of ways its like the friendship I have with Robifiers. I love them, great guys all around and I wouldnt trade what Ive got with them for anything.
I went to Hot Topic and did alittle Nightmare Before Christmas shopping for myself. You have no idea how much I *love* NBC.
Im really regretting that I didnt ask for NBC for Christmas. Dammit!
I get inside there and Im searching through all their things and man is there ALOT! If I wouldnt have to buy Christmas gifts for everyone I would so be buying Hot Topic's supply of NBC goodies. They have a cool coffin shaped stationary something or other I think it was. Ive decided I want a purse though. They had a coffin-shaped backpack/purse kind of thing. I wanted it cause it was so neat BUT I got to thinking about the preppy lil cheerleader types wearing them and than that gurl who trys to be goth but isnt really. Im sure we all know one. I happen to know afew. And the thought of it all quite frankly sickened me. lol
Well, fuck Im honest at least. Do I get points for that? Heh.
So, I got myself some NBC wrapping paper which I have no intentions of using. Ever. A planner which is very very cool. You have no idea how much I am loving it. *swoons*
And lastly my christmas cards. Oh yes, cant get cooler than that!
And lastly, this provided me so many non-stop minutes of laughter. So, of course I had to share. Ready? Hold on tight. Here weeeee go!!
This wonderful item can be bought from Xandria and will either provide hours of sexual satisfaction or... hysterical laughter. You decide.
Xandria offers their customers to review said toys. Helping others make the choice easier. All the comments were the same, such as:
"ALL RIGHT !!!!!......finally a toy that offers the ease of tongueing a pussy while filling it up at the same time and it leaves the hands free to roam the partners body.....This is one of the most sensual and satisfying oral sex enhancers I have ever tried .....And the one who wears it loves the reponses it creates.....Orgasm after orgasm.....OOOOO LA LA.....Thank you thank you thank you"
and
"When my man used the accommodator with me, I was probably floating about 4 inches above the bed in complete ecstasy. It put his mouth exactly where I most enjoy it and kept his hands free to massage me while I came over and over again while squealing with pleasure. Ladies, you've just got to try this one with your lover!">
Mmmkay, so it sounds good, no? Satisfaction guaranteed. But, the comment that had me hysterical in laughter was this one below. And kiddies, Im telling you THIS is classic!
She said, "I hate to be the party pooper, but I just could not take my husband seriously with this dildo strapped to his head. I busted out laughing and could never gain control enough to enjoy it. I still laugh when I remember the episode. We never used it again."
Can you imagine that? Hehehehehehehe. That would be a story to tell your kids, grandkids, neighbors etc. And if you still had it lying around you could pass it around for them, sorta like a show and tell type thing. *evil*
Another chic commented how her man busted out of the closet wearing only this wonderful chin strap and chaps. Mmm, mmm, mmmm! Damn is that sexy! :P
Should my man do that I would laugh and lose all interest. Well, than again. Maybe not. :D
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