you'll always need me.
@ 8:17 pm on 24 September 03
Me again. Back to rant. I guess this is more to myself, sort of a reminder. A reminder that Rog is just a jerk.
His cousin, Dolly called earlier and was shocked to hear how hes treating me. She said I should just kick his ass out and let his new gf have a plate full of shit to deal with. She's so0o0o right. She knew something was up with him as well since he hadnt called in her in awhile.
I picked him up from work and we got into a fight again. Why? Because I refused to say anything to him. I thought I was doing both of us a favor by not saying shit to him but I guess not.
I wouldve loved to have opened my passenger door and thrown him out on I80 right into the path of a semi. Hi Rog meet Semi's front grill. Asshole. I prolly shouldnt say that though. I really dont wish anything bad to happen to him I just dont understand how you can let someone you dont know change you and how you act to those supposedly closest to you. But, hey what do I know??
So, hes like the whole world is out to get me. Well, shit maybe the world thinks you can do better than that fucking excuse. I ask him a simple question and he explodes in anger towards me. Pffft. Whatever though. He went for a walk afew hours ago (Im sure dipshit was eagerly awaiting a call from him since she hasnt called here~ thank god). I wish he would stay gone, wishful thinking, I know.
I just cant believe that Ive been such a devoted bestfriend to him and my thanks for years of 'friendship' is not a damn thing. A friend of convience. A friend to bail him out when he needs it. A friend no more.
This will be my last entry regarding Rog. Im tired of this situation. Im tired of it consuming my every thought. Tired of dealing with all this, period. And so, Im done.
"You'll always need me much more than I need you...."
I started to finally read The Bible, I didnt get very far but hey it is a start. Im going to read some every night. I fell asleep with it wrapped in my arms, awww. Cute. :)
I will admit though while reading it I felt so peaceful. It was a good feeling.
Mmm, I really dont have much else to say but if you read my previous entry than here are the lyrics to that song I like so well. And some pics.
Dave Gahan: Stay
She's softly breathing next to me
A shining angel sent to me
From where she came it's hard to say
Tiny star she guides my way
When we were lovers
We both discovered
Stay, you can leave tomorrow
Stay, wait until tomorrow
Please stay
Living here in shades of grey
Colour she light, a reason to stay
From where she came it's hard to say
Tiny star she guides my way...
The oh-so-deliciously-yummy All Hallows Eve cookies my mom gave me.
Summer's hamster, Matt McGuire. She named him after "Matt" on The Lizzie McGuire show. Heh, cute.
Awww. Mokah looks so damn cute in this pic!!! *kisses to Mokie-Mokie*
Hope yall are having better days than I. Over and Out. xox
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