letting go...
@ 9:52 am on 22 September 03
I'm such an emotional mess this morning. I have no idea why either. I listened to this song and I cried. I read Anthony's email to me (which was very funny and beautiful) and it made me cry. I thought about how Im losing Rog as a friend and I cried too.
And I feel like shit. 3 wks of feeling like crap cant be good. On the way home from taking Rog to work the sun was out and made me pretty toasty yet I was cold with goosebumps.
And tummy aches, headaches, my asthma flaring up, tingly arm, lightheaded feeling, throwing up, eating anything and feeling worse AND dizzy every once in awhile equals prolly really sick and should see a DR.
Normally, at the very beginnings of something different w/me and Id haul ass to the DRs but this time for some reason I didnt. But I did make the promise to Anthony, so I'll call.
My gurlie aka my cuz is also been sick. Hopefully she'll get seen today or tomorrow at the latest. Shes been running high temps for awhile now, which is never good. :(
And I really dont want to slam anyone when it comes to my gurlie but dammit her man was being an ass about her being seen by a DR.... you would think he would care. The kids have been keeping an eye on her- its sweet of them to be so caring but theyre lil kids, that isnt their job. Drew shouldve stepped up to the plate a long time ago and taken care of her.
I guess he would rather feel sorry for himself though and complain about a job. Heh, which is damn funny. Why would you take a job w/more responsibilities and the same pay as the previous position you held?
o0o0 o0o0o which reminds me, my friend Tim (ex-boss) and his wife went on a cruise (yes, I am envious- thanks for asking) and this was before that whole hurricane Isabel. Anyways, though he pays over 1 grand each for these tickets and they ask him if he wants the insurance- that would cover them wanting to back out and ensure they would get all their $$ back should something like, hmm a hurricane lol come around.... he opted not to spend the extra 75$ per ticket to do that.
Isabel starts to form and do all her good stuff and they cant cancel. His wife calls to try and get their $ back but guess what?? They couldnt. She only tore Tim a new ass for his stupidity.
They went on the cruise despite Isabel and we all kept joking with Tim that we would see him wash up on shore somewhere w/his luggage. I havent heard from him so I hope thats not the case. I would feel bad than for making fun of him. :P
Hmm, what else? Summer went to her friends party over the weekend. I hate Chuck E's but than I wasnt the B-day gurl either. *shrugs*
Its like waaaaaaaay to packed and barely any room. But this isnt really mentioning anything about the party, is it? Nope.
Mmmkay, so back to the party. It was alot of fun for Chelsea and Im guessing even more special this time around because she was adopted.
Brian and Denise had been fostering her since~ well as long as I can remember.
And after a long while the adoption was finalized. So, this makes Chelsea's first year as a permanent part of the family. :)
Off track *again* lol, sorry. Thats cute I apologize in my own diary. I guess I have no backbone today. So, back to the party. She got tons of goodies and had alot of fun by the looks of things. The End. :)
I got to clean my salamanders tank today. I was being a lazy bum this weekend and told em. I mean they have military names- their tank right now could be a hellacious training area for a top secret mission....
Heh, I have just alil bit of fun w/em, dont I??
I know I have more to say but Im tired. I wanna go back to bed. And maybe eat something lite on the tummy. Actually, I think for awhile Im gonna lay off the spicy foods. *CRIES* Anyone who knows me, knows spicy is my life. I mean I can eat an entire jar of jalepenos (umm, no I dont really think thats something to be proud of or gloat about either lol). And cayenne pepper, cayenne pepper sauce, tabasco, jabeneros (cant spell it but theyre a hell of alot hotter than jalepenos but so yummy). *Sigh*, I will miss you my spicy goodness. RIP. :(
I think we all should have a moment of silence.........
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Mmmkay, I feel alil better about letting go (for now). Anyways, time to take myself alil nappy all snuggled up w/my puppito. I think shes got a head start on that deal.
"Just remember Im a piece of mirror that reflects upon how you treat me...."
--PFC Chun-Hang Jacky Lee
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