prepare for the long ass entry lol I finished up my cousin's site, looks pretty good if I do say so myself. Its simple but organized. Sometimes being organized is nice. You would never suspect me NOT to be. My house is umm, cluttered. Mission Impossible would be to actually find a spot for everything that is mine. I should just have a garage sale and get rid of it all but its all that useful kinda junk. My bro sold his Galaxie to some chump acpl blocks away from me. You all just have no idea how THRILLED I am to have that car gone. Dont get me wrong it was always fun to drive but its been wrecked for quite sometime, was parted out and now the remains, carcass seems fitting is soon to disappear too. Tomorrow I feel a burial is in order. Or I guess last rites. Whatever. Its a car.
Talked to the boy on the phone tonight and do you know what that meant?? I got to hear his sexy voice *gurlie scream* lol... Yeah, so Im addicted. I admit it. Some addictions are nice to have, this is definetly one of 'em.
I know its only been a week ya know since weve been together but I dont wanna mess anything up....
We talked about me possibly going to a Mortuary Science College there, I checked into that place before, was awhile back. So, I'll check it out again cause Im guessing some things have changed since then. So, I asked everyone their GOD questions but Im not going to post their answers- because there were quite afew responses. I will give mine though and yes, this could pose to be lengthy. Brace yourself loves.
Yes, I believe in GOD because I dont believe any of what we have could have been done without HIM. LIFE. Couldnt have happened and we would not be around if Jesus had not died for our sins.
Through all of that crap I got confirmed. And than I never stepped foot inside a church again.
That poem I wrote was THE most insane, freakiest thing I ever wrote. It didnt phase me at the time of writing it of course, hell I thought it was cool. One night I decided I would ask GOD for help, help to get back to where I was before, to believe. To love. HIM. I didnt think I would get the chance but I did. Even after I did all of that shit- HE never left me. He still believed in me. Even though I was still suicidal I cut all ties with Diablo. I realize I got way off but I had to mention it because it plays a vital role in my life. I would be dead if it werent for my daughter. She is my angel. I know there have been acouple times I have come extremely close to dying. And one time were my sight was in jeopardy. I know I was protected by a higher power. Someone was watching me. My proof? In one of the very bad accidents I was in when I got home the cross my Grandma had given me (I had it on the door frame of my bedroom) was gone. When I instinctivly reached in my pants pocket~ there was MY cross. And my eyes? A condition the neurosurgeon said would only get worse, that I would slowly lose sight and be blind. My proof? My aunt started a prayer chain at church and by the time I went back to the neurosurgeon my sight was fine. He said and I quote, "Oh my GOD, Sarah. It is a miracle from GOD." No arguing there. Thank you LORD for *always* keeping me safe and free of harm. And always being there for me. You are great. :) And if your still with me lol, the questions I asked tonight were: in your last relationship how long did it take before you told that person you loved them? And how did they respond? (excited, etc) When the relationship was over did you regret telling the person that? And has there ever been a relationship you were in that you wish hadnt happened? And Im answering now. While its fresh in my mind. The person I was with before I told him those words after 1 month of being with him. I think in some ways he was relieved that I said them first but I felt like an idiot for doing so. I didnt want him thinking he was obligated to say it back to me just because I said it. Although, I was hoping I hadnt hung myself out there. Its a very intimidating position to be in. Heh, I think when the relationship came to a close I didnt regret saying the words because I did love him. I just regretted being the 1st to tell him. Because after it was over I wondered if he had truly loved me. There have been afew very foolish relationships Ive got myself into... Alright kiddies, you survived, I think. Love you. |