Kloe, my sweet angel. Im sorry. *Sigh* I'm feeling ultra shitty this morning. Why? You ask. Because I just realized that two days ago was my dog's birthday. Now, I know what your thinking... "It's just a dog, who cares" Ahh, but thats where YOUR wrong. That pup was my life. I had picked her before I had saw her. When I went to pick her up, it was love at first sight. She was perfect. Tan, red nose, green eyes, stocky build ....beautiful. We had this awesome connection, she followed me everywhere, snuggled in the bed with me, took walks through the neighborhood, she went with me to picnics that were held for fellow rescuers and was always a hit. I remember when I had volunteered to sit at the booth for the Pet Expo and decided I would bring her up there, all eyes were on her, she was just beautiful and incredible and her personality was like no other. At home she would talk to me. Heh, I always thought that was the absolute cutest thing. Especially when it was time for her to be fed. Sadly though at only 5 months old, she passed away. A cruel death, slow and painful. I have never forgiven myself for that night and I still have issues with what happened. It happend Oct. 02 and I still have horrible images flash in my mind. Still cry when I see her pic, still cant bring myself to let her go..... she wasnt a pet, she was a friend. And what upsets me so damn much is that I forgot her birthday..... She would've been 1 on May 15th. I didnt remember it at all. Sure, I looked at her pics as I do every day and I looked out my bedroom window to where shes buried and talked to her as I always do but I didnt wish her a happy birthday. It just really upsets me that I was so selfish on Thurs., so preoccupied that I didnt remember my friends birthday....... A link to her memorial can be found here: Kloe |