abit miffed? listening: the sounds of the dogs chasing each other and their nails making that scratching noise against the wood floors... Went to Borders today and picked up some books for my daughter, checked my funds in my 401(k). I'm thinking I should go ahead and have more of a percentage taken out of my checks.... something for me to think about, I suppose. I also went and looked at *another* Mitsubishi Eclipse. This one was a beauty! I can think of so much more I'd love to have done with it--IF I decide to get it. Right now the guy says it looks pretty good for me with the trade-in and all, so I don't know. I should find out more about this in the morning. *crosses fingers* My friend Tony, who regularly reads this wasn't too pleased (at least he didn't sound like he was pleased in the email he sent me) about how he shouldn't have read the entry I wrote. I'm assuming the entry about JuJu and Robifiers..... my lusting over them. Or is it the fact that Tony wants more than I'm willing to give him right now? Tony and I met online through a singles dating kind of site, while we've talked awhile online.... we've never met in person nor have we spoke on the phone. Probably what sounds really odd is that we live in the same city. It's not that I don't want to meet him, it's just that right now at this very moment I have no interest in "hooking" up with him and I don't want a relationship either. I sometimes think if we do get together as friends and do something than what will happen? What if it goes somewhere? A BIG part of me is scared to start anything with anyone because I know how it always ends up. I know that's not exactly fair to Tony but I feel like I've made myself pretty clear about that from the jump and I don't think I've done anything to mislead him.... or have I? And I don't realize it? Hmmm.... He always says I dodge him (like going and doing things together) but I did invite him over the weekend to come to the bowling alley. I realize it was my daughter's party but he was more than welcome and he didn't respond back to that. I wonder if that was like payback for the times I wasn't able to make it to things we had planned, if he felt out of place, uncomfortable, but regardless I heard nothing. So.... can't say I didn't make the attempt this time around because I did. Anyways, I'm really curious to find out why he didn't like reading the 'ol diary this time around..... I can't pick and choose who reads this nor would I want to, I'm not going to lock this so only people I think are worthy to read this can .....these are my thoughts etc and I'm sure not going to edit my thoughts to protect or sugar coat what I'm feeling and who I'm feeling things for..... and no Tony that's not directed at you solely, just saying that's how I feel about ANYONE who actually reads this crap. |