lusting over... you. G' Afternoon all... I emailed JuJu lastnight before going to bed half expecting it would be returned to me within seconds being last time I emailed him the box was full and my 'lil 'ol email didn't make the cut. Looks like this time it did. I hope he's able to access his mail sometime soon and replies back... I guess I'm pretty anxious about what he's going to say or if he even will. Hmmm, this is always the hardest part and the part I hate the most--- WAITING! No doubt Brad is worth the wait, he's been the ONLY man I've ever come across who has this insatiable appetite for sex like myself. Especially the way I like it. Mmmmm, just thinking about it makes me tingle inside. We would have such awesome conversations of what we do to each other and OH MY GOD the detail! It was bad enough that we were so damn far apart at the time but it made me fear what would happen if we were together to do everything we wanted right than and there.... the pain, the pleasure. Oh my, the pleasure! Honestly, there has only been one other man who sexually has stole my heart and that's Robifiers..... Incredible. Simply Incredible! Now, I could never do anything with him but we sure did come damn close afew times.... I would've been willing but you see, he is married. :( And even though his wife was unfaithful he didn't think he could live with himself if he did anything like that to her. Being he said he knew the kind of pain and hurt he felt from her doing that and he didn't want to make her feel that way. I always told him, "Damn, that's considerate of you" lol... I guess it was but fuck it pissed me off. There was nothing I wanted more than to have him deep inside me doing all the freaky, nasty, perv shit we had dreamed up and like I said we came damn close but alas, nothing. I still would love to hook up with him but he's faithful and I'm done being coy, cute, irresistable, etc to make him feel guilty about us not getting together for fun. Although, he did come close, I don't know what happened last minute, he got a concious, I guess. Blah. Anyways, I rarely talk to him now I guess because I have the desire to still fuck him and even though he feels the same about me-- he won't act on it, he'll only "act" on it online, which ain't cuttin' it for me. I want the real deal and if he can't forget about his wife long enough to come and get what he's craves and desires more than anything else from me-- something his wife refuses to give him.... than his loss. I will have mine! Anyways, I don't know if I want Brad because of how I feel about him or because of the sex we're both so drawn too. If it is both, that could be one very explosive, happy, pleasurable, painful, exciting, sex-filled fun relationship, ever. Period. And he's a Marine, a Marine... good lord! ;) *Blakkrayn is very addicted to a man in uniform, preferably Marines & Air Force. Woooo!!* |