sugar coated shit Listening: In Flames- Cloud Connected
I royally fucked up today. Things between Anthony and I have been good except for his constant playing of World of Warcraft. Now, dont get me wrong I play the game as well but I dont put the game above my real life responsibilities or loved ones. And thats my complaint. Between him working full-time and going to school full-time theres never time for his family. Never any interaction. I barely see him, we rarely talk about our relationship, the kids, life.... its always about World of Warcraft. It gets old quick.
Sometimes I feel like Im single with two kids, other times I feel like Im nothing more than a maid/babysitter. Other times I feel like nothing at all. I dont feel like Im appreciated and a lot of times I feel taken for granted which is a shitty feeling. Sometimes I get such negative thoughts in my head where I could careless if I wake up to see another day. I think why am I here? To be a servant? Its just frusterating. So, naturally I called my bestest friend in the whole wide world, Robifiers and vented to him and apparently Anthony was awake in the bedroom listening to the entire conversation. When he woke up tonight to get ready for work he snapped at me several times so I knew he mustve been listening and than it was confirmed.
I dont feel shitty that he knows how I feel, really I could careless. Its how I feel and Im more than entitled but how he percieved what I said is another story.... he took it as I was implying he didnt do anything and that he was a piece of shit for a father which is not the case and not what I said or even meant. *sigh* Well, Im sorry life sucks at times and Im blunt. Im gonna say things that hurt cause thats who I am. I wont lie, I wont try to sugar coat shit so its easier to swallow. |