always in awe
@ 2:19 pm on 22 November 2004
Listening: Jay-Z- Can I Get A...
Wow! This weekend was amazing and know what? It didnt even include sex. lol
Saturday morning was spent doing our own thing for abit (me: talking on the phone to Brad; the boy: playing Dungeons & Dragons) than we got ready to out for abit. We didnt do anything spectacular except goto Dollar General, Goodwill, and Walmart but we had fun. We actually acted like a couple-- which weve both been working on, on a more subconcious level, cause weve never really talked about it. What bothered me alittle is that when we got to Walmart he decided to be an annoying ass and Im not real sure why. :/
He actually told me before we got out of the car that he was trying to piss me off and annoy me as much as possible. I dont understand. When we got inside the store my mindset had changed and I avoided him and had not much to say. It bothered me cause it felt like we were going backwards. I asked him why he wanted to piss me off and he didnt have much of an answer... so I just avoided him more. But than as I was staring at him from afar I realized that no matter how much he does things that I dont understand that I cant see myself without him. Hell, it scares me sometimes to think of us not together. Than he said something about "if we ever broke up..." stuff and I was like, "why would that happen? Do you have some chic waiting in the wings?" He said, "Nope, never". Strange. I just dont get him at times. Hmmm.
The rest of the night as weird as it sounds went fine and we had fun. We were actually holding hands off and on. The only thing I can think what would cause him to say the above is either A) in a joking way or B) he sees us becoming more close and deep down hes scared I might do something like his ex-fiancee did to him and its 'protection'. I dunno. I do spend alot of time talking on the phone to various male friends for several hours a day even when the boy is home. Maybe I should cut that down abit. *shrugs*
Sunday was so excellent. :)
We got up fairly early and headed to his parents house in Morehead. We went into town and hit GNC to get some protein powder drink for his dad, Walmart (yes, again! GAH!) to get a blender for his parents, and than we hit a flea market. I *love* those, always so much interesting, unusual finds and cheap, heh. I did find acouple things I wanted but I left my money back home and I didnt wanna ask the boy for it... so I'll get it lates.
We got to his parents and so many cars were there and I was thinking "Good lord, Im gonna be meeting several people, aint I?" Plus I was getting nervous bout all these folks.
We walked in and I meet his Aunt Susan, his cousin, Hayla and several other folk from their church (they were there doing prayer for his dad.) Than I saw something I had never seen before and I thought it was really cool. They started singing church hymns and some of his dads fave songs.... the one man was so into his singing and worship that he held his hands up in the air, muttering things and would every now and than grab Frank's (Anth's dad) hand and hold it and shake it alittle. Frank had his eyes closed the entire time.
Than they asked Anth and I if we wanted to join in their prayer circle, we declined but watched. I was in awe just cause I had never seen anything like this in all my church days-- even though I havent stepped inside one in over 10 yrs...
They formed a circle all with their heads bowed, holding hands and than started praying. It wasnt one prayer but each of them praying outloud to GOD and getting really into it. You couldnt tell who was saying/praying for what since so many voices were going at once. When they were finished some had tears streaming down their face.
While all that was going on, the boy and I were in the kitchen playing with the blender... like adding the ingrediants for his dads drink. As he was scooping out some icecream it went flying across the table and plopped down on the floor. Hehehehe. We were both hysterical w/laughter but real quiet about it since the prayer was going on. His dad actually liked the drink though so thats good. Maybe this will help strengthen up his body some to fight this damned cancer... tis the plan anyways.
We sat around at his parents house til 1am, with various people showing up like his Uncle Ray. Ive heard so much about him and he is one helluva guy. You instantly get this vibe from him, I liked him so much. I can also see where Anth is how he is.... Anth in alot of ways is like a duplication of his Uncle with some slight differences. Everyone made me feel so welcome though, like... family. : )
Anth decided to go visit his cousin, Derek for acouple hours so I had the option to go or stay at his folks with his family so I did that. He said to me, "You know my family is your family, too" Awww... that was sweet of him and I sat there wondering what his family was thinking since they had smiles on their faces, lol
So, I handed my keys over (we took my car this time 'round) and he disappeared.
Hayla's 4 yr old twin daughters, Ciera and Tiara were busy asking me questions since Anth was gone. They wanted to know my nicname and I told them it was Bug or Buggie and they both were hysterical through laughter saying, "thats funny". Heh, even the boys mom said, "Buggie?" lol...
Ciera decided I had a piece of hair sticking up and she disappears and comes back with a brush, lol... so I brushed my hair several times but this piece was still sticking up so I handed the brush to Ciera and she fixed it for me. So cute. :D
Than she sees my car coming back and she shouts to everyone, "HERE COMES BUBBY!" and my boy walks in the door. :) than she says, "o0o0o0o0o theres yoooouuurrrr booooyyyyfrrrriiiiend" and giggles. Such a little cutie. I want some!!!! lol
The gurls fell asleep, Kelsey went home with his brother, Nate and his wife, Kim. Uncle Ray and Aunt Susan left for home, his dad went to bed and me, his mom, him and Hayla talked for awhile. Anth was in a good mood and very affectionate. We sat on the couch together, laying on one another every now and than, holding hands, playing with each others fingers, playing with each others hair.. it was so, so great. When we were leaving we were leaned up against my car, me snuggling up next to him cause he was warm and it was cool outside, the moons light shining down upon us... looking into one anothers eyes not saying a word.... than kissing and telling one another we loved each other.
Lastnight was definetly a night I felt "home". I mean its so amazing to see how his family is so loving and affectionate and geniunelly cares about one another. I can see myself being a part of this if the boy will allow me to do so....
When we got home we talked about some of our past relationships and he was like, "they dont matter anymore... Ive got a great woman and Im the happiest Ive been in a long time..."
.....talk about a good weekend. ♥
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