some sleep-deprieved ramblings Listening: Emerson Lake and Palmer - From The Beginning
I ended up sleeping most the day away. Couldve been productive but wasnt. I just wanted acpl hours to 'catch up' on sleep but that couple turned into about 5 1/2.
My folks went to my older brother, Silvino's for some cajun dinner and suggested I tag along but... I didnt. Mostly cause I feel so out of place and unwanted around him. It never used to be that way. Used to be super close to him and my lil bro, Seth was the outcast but as Seth got older and closer to the age where we all were kicked out, Val took him under his wing and its been that way since. Im not bitter about it cause Silvino has done Seth alot of good. But, Id be lying if I said I didnt miss the closeness we once had. I hate feeling so weird and uncomfortable around my own familia.
Told dad about my lingerie business tonight, he was psyched. I guess because this was something I did on my own. No help what-so-ever. He said, "Now Ive got two kids who own their own business, damn cool!". I know it makes him proud to see me making a decent income and doing what I want on my own terms not on someone elses. Fuck that. Ive never been good at listening or taking orders from others anyway, guess that would explain me ditching every job Ive ever held after 5 months, some even shorter like 2 days. Since I do have my own business now Im getting offers from creditors for small business owners. Nuh uh! Im so not messing with that. Credit is evil. Evil I say.
During dinner tonight Sum got upset and started crying (she yelled at her great aunt and I was not having that) so she ran off to her room crying. The aunt she yelled at was babying her and was telling her it was 'ok'. Umm, hello. No it wasnt -k-. Not acceptable at all. I told her (aunt) that Sum could sulk and didnt need to be babied. Within seconds Sum came from the room back to the table and screamed," IM NOT TALKING TO ANY OF YOU!!!!" and took a huge bite of her taco while crying. I dont think Ive ever laughed so hard. I mocked her immediately, totally doing what she did, she busts out laughing as does everyone else at the table. I told her, "See how you acted?" Her reply a calm, "yes". I said, "And do you think that was -k-?" She said, "Not at all" and apologized to her aunt. Acouple minutes later she had a plate covering her face up so I drew a smiley face on it. Heh.
O0o0o Eric!! Your going to be an Uncle! How exciting is that?? Congrats to your sister! I wish her the best. :D Lastly, I think as much as I like this layout I dont like it. All at the same time. I miss my white 'Im pretty' one (my guestbook design). I think a new one shall be in the works soon. Yup yup. Have a good Friday/Weekend! Much love ♥ |