evil satan cookies..
@ 1:30 am on 21 February 04
Listening: Vince Gill - Go Rest High On The Mountain
Not much has happened the past couple days except for on the 19th was the 6 month mark that Anthony and I have been together. It really does go by so fast. I sent him a cute lil e-card. Hopefully around this time next month me and Anthony will be able to celebrate our 7 months together. :D
Im hoping *crosses fingers* that he might have tonight off... we havent had the chance to talk, IM or anything for the past week and it sucks. :(
I guess I can be strong and hold out alitttle longer since they'll be switching to 12s next week. Means I'll get my daily dose (3-4xs a week) of my boy. Yipppeeee Skippy!
I see expensive phone bills ahead. Good thing though is maybe we'll be able to *finally* pick out where exactly in KY we wanna live and of course decide on an actual place. I found this kickass house for 629$/mo. and it has acpl bedrooms, fireplace... all sorts of niceness. Damn, I wonder if I can convince him on that one? Its only 29$ more than what we had agreed on. Hmm, alil arm-twisting is in order I think. :) I should post a pic of this place. *I get so excited as the anticipation will finally be coming to an end, my tracker is at 99 days!*
I have slacked off on calling funeral homes. Im abit scared. Not of the place itself but scared/nervous about what the funeral director may say or... what the hell do I say to them? Hmm. I always feel really insecure and stupid around alot of men. I think this goes back to my days at the Tech College and I was the only chic in a room of about 30 guys. Just abit intimidating when it was a time you didnt see a chic going to school for computer programming. And dealing with the occassional remarks about how I didnt belong there, etc etc. Lets not forget the sexist comments too.
So, yeah... when I think of approaching these men about an apprenticeship in (once again) a mostly mans field of work intimidation sets in. Ive noticed Ive felt this way around Anthony once or twice before and I shouldnt. We are equals and hes never really made me feel like those guys at Tech did. Something for me to work on I suppose. Add it to my list.
Summer decided she wanted to join Girl Scouts this year so I signed her up for that. She wants me to be a leader or co-leader. Hmm, I marked the co-leader box but in parentheses underneath it I said "maybe.... time permitting". Heh, I wonder if they'll have a sense of humor about that? Least Im honest.
I remember doing the whole GS thing. I admit Im excited about it I always had a good time. Hmm, know what? This GS shit is just in time for them to push their cookies.
MUST.BE.STRONG.AND.NOT.BUY.OR.EAT.COOKIES.
Alrighty, someone pray for me that the boy has the night off today... I really miss him and want to talk to him for hours and hours...
Sweet dreams. xox
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