i just discovered....
@ 1:19 pm on 20 November 03
Listening: Britney Spears- Touch of my Hand
Mmmkay, by FAR my fave song on her CD. I love the chinese tone too it.
Today is Day One of being at my folks. I went over this morning to feed Alfie. I gave her some collard greens all diced up tiny as can be and for a treat some red grapes. Gave her some fresh water, turned on the vaporizer and gave her acpl pets on her side and tail. I still dont fully trust her to pet her on her head when she is glaring at me. Kind of intimidating. I've had my fair share of iguanas but they were juveniles, were talking over 5ft of iguana with Alfie.
Than I got on the PC for acpl mins over there, mainly to add ICQ so I can talk to my friends while Im over there. Cause I picture me being totally BORED. At least I didnt have to add Yahoo. Twas already on there.
It was weird being in the house all alone.... seemed so empty. Well, I suppose it would lol but you know what I mean. I walked in and saw Dads shoes where hes always put them and I wondered hey maybe theyre still here so instinct said look in the garage. My brother, Val's SUV they borrowed for the trip was gone and Moms car was on the other side (where dad usually parks his truck-- but my brother Val has that)
and an empty spot where mom usually would park. So, I guess I get to park in there... will be nice. A garage. Luxury. Heh.
So, I dont know I checked every room upstairs, downstairs and the basement almost have expecting to see mom or dad but I knew they were long gone on their way to Louisiana.
On the island in the kitchen there were several post-it notes with lil things from both my folks.
Mom left a note saying they left at 1a instead of 4a and that she went to the store and picked up afew more things that I may want. She even remembered english muffins with raisins in them. And grape jelly for me to put on top. A fridge filled with Pepsi, meat, etc. I was pretty suprised.
Dad had a note there for me too it was sitting on top of a container of homebaked chocolate chip cookies. It said: For my 2 favorite girls. Some cookies for you. Enjoy them. Love, Dad/Grampy
Aww, I really thought that was sweet of them both. I guess most the time I dont think they care for me or about me because it isnt openly shown or expressed. And I think back to my childhood and assume thats the reason why and nothing has changed. But it has. I realized that today. In that big empty house just how much I really did miss them both.
Weird how that works out, eh? I guess this is my proof that Im growing up and facing things..... things from my past that once haunted and tormented me daily. It still does at times, dont get me wrong but Im dealing with it now instead of shutting it all out. As I do though, it upsets me and I cry.
Not sure why though. Maybe cause Im happy? Cause Im finally letting go? Upset that it has taken me so long to get to this point? I really cant place it. Its abit overwhelming though. Even for me, the gurlie who can handle anything thrown her way. Hmmm.
So, from now (1:43p) until I get Sum from school (3:40p) I have to get things packed up. Head out to meet my aunt for abit-- maybe convince her to buy me some dinner lol, see about a cell srvc cause Ms. Sarah is going crazy without one. Its sad when you can go without these cool lil gadgets and than get one and rely on it so much. Its crazy I tell ya. And lets face it, Ms. Sarah is a technology whore. If its new, cool, small, can do many things and is advancing towards the future than yeah I gotta have it. No matter what the cost. *Shrugs*
Sorta remind myself of some geeky computer nerd creaming his pants over some cool new fast processor. Hey, not that its a bad thing. Hehe.
Oh, and I have to try and be back to the house at 5p so I can turn off the vaporizer for Alfie, get the mail, turn on the light for Alfie before her 'bedtime' and of course feed her dinner. Goodness. I think by the time Im done I'll be the one one some weird, uncool schedule. :D
I will apt. scout tonight and possibly make calls tomorrow morning/afternoon. And figure out what I can do with Peeky this weekend since my boy works :( :(
Ugh, that really, really, really sucks. Weve barely got to talk this week but ahh well, what can I do? I can deal better while Im not there but damn when Im there and he has to work Im so gonna be whining and be like this, "No0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0!!!!" Heh. Oh, pathetic I will be. In the name of love.
So, seeing as his job has ruined my weekend (nah, Im not *that* bitter lol) I will umm be doing something. Maybe Peek can have acpl rugrats over to spend the night. That equals me entertaining 8 year olds. Oh lordy.
Mmmm, anyways. Its 2p and I should start gathering goodies.
Have a good Thurs. yall. Cya.
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