a rant of sorts if you will...
@ 11:32 pm on 15 October 03
Ever know someone who always rushes their relationships? I do. LOL
Mmm I would be talking about Rog and his latest, greatest "interest". I have no idea why Im wasting an entry on him either. I have nothing better to do with my night, I guess.
Anyways, I found out some things he had said about me to some of his friends online and needless to say it is a bunch of bullshit. Apparently, when I move I plan on taking Summer away from him and I wont allow him to see her anymore. Now anyone who knows me knows I am not like that. Im not the one who has taken off 3xs in the name of pussy. But I am the one who has let him come back each time (very stupidly, I admit) so Summer can have her dad around. Im the one who sent him cards, birthday invites etc. He is the one who chose to ignore those invites and stay away.
Now, I find out that he is looking at making it a 4th time. In fact he told me I was the one taking her away from him this time. I've never pulled a stunt like he has in my entire life cause I know what my priorities are. Apparently its -k- for him to be happy but I should be miseable. Well, fuck that.
I guess he'll get not just 1 but 3 boys that he always wanted cause this winner has boys. We'll he can have them. All of them. Dont get me wrong. I have nothing against her kids-- its just that they arent his. And he would rather give her kids that father figure that he ultimately chooses not to give his own flesh and blood. Im through. I really am.
If he takes off like he did the past than Ive made the choice that he will no longer be in her life. Ever. I wont subject either of us to this again. In ways it is sort of like a form of abuse. Mental. Which sometimes is the worst. I know Ive done damage to her mentally by continually letting this happen and its got to stop.
I told him I wish to know nothing of this "relationship". Im not stopping it, Im not protesting it. Im doing absolutely nothing. He knows where I stand and all I ask is that he doesnt magically disappear one night or morning. If he does-- He no longer has a daughter. I will not allow him to ever see her until shes of legal age and make her own decisions about it.
I only hope Summer realizes this and knows I would never do anything to intentionally hurt her. I love her more than life itself and it would kill me if she hated me in the end of all this drama.
Ive been doing -k- at raising her myself anyways these past 8 yrs. Im confident that I can handle a lifetime more. Im strong and so is she. :)
Random Thoughts:
*Tomorrow is the circus (I guess technically today, its midnight now).
*A dude at the laundromat touched my ass I dont think it was intentional considering his woman was like beside me folding her laundry~ but it was odd. I liked his hat though. Damn, I liked that hat. It was snazzy!!
*Brad sent me an email. Im debating if its worth my time to answer him back. I doubt I will. I have nothing to say.
*Sharon was upset due to Ronnie's attitude. She thought she was preg and Ronnie voiced his opinion. I guess its -k- that he loves her, that he hits it when he wants, its even -k- if they dont use protection BUT damn dont let her get pregnant. Cause that would be bad.
He already made mention of an abortion. She refuses. He claims hes too young (22) and isnt mature, responsible or financially stable..... wasnt that something you shouldve taken into consideration BEFORE you decided to cum inside her??? Hmmmm.
And while were at it Mr. I-Cant-Handle-Responsibility-If-My-Gurl-Is-Preg-Cause-Im-Not-A-Man if you couldnt handle the potentials that come along with fucking without protection than you shouldve wised up and not been fucking in the first place. And he already had a girl preg back when he was 16 and they had an abortion. Dont get me started there. Stupid fucking people. Shit, I had to do it. What makes them the exception??
Mmmkay, before I go. Eric- I dunno where you went the first time for your nip piercing but come to Omaha and we shall venture to the darkside.... lol
We'll head on over to Big Brain or Villians.... and I shall catch you in the AM. ;)
10-4, over and out.
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