did i hurt you too?? ...damn Well, damn I do think Im on a how-many-people-can-I-piss-off-in-a-week contest. Already in just one day, I've managed to piss off my cousin, a friend, and someone who wanted something more from me which I wasnt willing to give.
So, I dunno what my take on this all should be. Let's see the situation with my cousin Im not even sure of. In all honesty to me she had been acting weird and abit distant and barely said anything to me when we did talk. And I just wasnt feeling like I needed to be a part of this yahoo group she had made. I didnt leave as in insult to her but maybe just maybe when she IM'd me asking the reason I was a tad bit harsh. It wasnt my intention to come off that way though. And I guess when were as close as we supposedly are, I would think her more than ANYONE else could pick up on that. The friend... we'll he asked for honesty. Me giving honesty in a blunt matter is never a problem but sometimes these ppl who demand to know the truth cant handle it (heh, thanks Jack Nicholson for that somewhat altered quote). Anyways, he asked and he recieved and apparently it hurt. Now, in all seriousness I feel damn bad for what I said and wishing I could take it back. Ive calmed myself though knowing technically I did nothing more than what he asked of me. Sorry that you cant handle it. Please, if we do get our friendship resolved. Dont ask me for honesty again unless you've hardened up abit and can handle it.
And the last person, I could easily say names but I wont. I have no need too.
Maybe Im selfish for feeling cheated. But I felt like it was a set-up. And for you to expect things to be certain ways when you returned was, well. Crazy.
And today I let the one I do desire know, which may not have been a smart thing to do. But, hey when do I ever do anything smart? Im usually a retard and yeah that move (telling him) prolly counted as one... since he ignored what I said and never brought it up to me. Maybe thats Karma kicking my ass. So, I suppose I should shut up about it and just forget about it.
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