misery is so you... Blah. That's how Im feeling at the current moment and as usual I have no idea why. I hate when I feel like this and really its times like this that I wish I was non-existant. The pain just hurts and rips me apart. Emotionally. Physically. *Sigh*
Katie sounds like she is having a good time at work messing with all our boys. I miss it. No lying. True, it was just a shit job to kill the time and Im sure I complained about it more than I really needed to but the group of people combined with the supervisors made it so, so fun. Talked to Brad, well I should say I heard from him. I didnt know what to say anyways. I mean your with a person and theyre stationed in another state. You love them & they feel the same about you (or so they say) but yet they have absolutely no contact with you and it isnt because they cant but Im thinking because they wont. Maybe I wasnt that important to him. *shrug* We'll that wouldnt be the first time Ive been fucked over. Im getting better and better at that game.
I just want a guy who can give me the same respect Im giving him. A guy who can have fun but be serious. A guy who makes me laugh, feel at ease with him, talk for hours about nothing and still have plenty to say. A guy who undoubtedly would be my bestfriend because isnt that when the relationships work the best? Mmmkay, this was a pointless as hell entry. Im out.
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