im a loser baby, so why dont you kill me Wow. I cant believe how bad Ive got it. And no, Im not talking NASCAR folks, even though I loved those commercials. Too bad they took em off. I just wish there were someway I could be closer to him or vice versa but than what? I desire him. His love. His everything. And Im beginning to feel like Im nothing without it. But he sees me only as a friend who will never be anything more because of the distance. Im not sure what breaks my heart more, knowing the distance is a problem or Im just not the one for him. :( Sad thing of it is, Im beginning to look forward to the weekends more than anything so we can talk. Im such a fuckin' loser. Gah. |