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@ 1:25 am on 29 July 03
Fuckity, fuck, fuck, FUCK!!!
I just had an awesome entry and what do I do like a retard? Yup. Accidentally delete it, someone shoot my ass.
I became a gold member today and somehow got convinced to toss in an extra 6 bucks to become a SUPERGOLD member. I added a comments section~ although I dont know how long I'll keep it up. Cant say I care to much for the idea of people commenting on my entries.
Update on the boy:
He left me a message on our diary. He doesnt want me to give up on us, even though US seems to be non-existant. Im not sure what I want to do with our relationship at this point. Ive invested alot of time and I hate to just say oh well and give up. I love him with all my heart I do know this much but Im so very confused and he doesnt always help to make me feel less confused. What I need more than anything between us is the interaction. Im nothing without it. He promises to deliver on that deal but where this relationship lies right now is a mystery.
In other news (hehe that made me feel like a news reporter on some hot story. Hmm, yeah this is a hot story. Still developing, I might add.)
I got to talk to Anthony tonight before he went to work, that was nice, real nice. Heh, he didnt even want to go in, just wanted to talk to me all night long like we do over the weekends. I can see myself falling for him so quickly. I have no idea if thats a good or bad thing. If I stay with Brad than of course thats a bad thing cause I dont want to hurt anyone. If Brad and I fade away I can see myself with Anthony and being happier than Ive been in a long time. Oooh, and hes got that sweet sexy southern accent. His voice reminds me of Dale Earnhardt Jr's, which is DAMN sexy. I dont care what anyone says..... and NO I dont like him for that reason. Hes in one word, AMAZING. I wish he could see that.
And to Eric, if you read this, HI! :) Im gonna be stalking your diary so keep it updated :) Give a girlie a good read. *kiss*
Im out, again
xox
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