do you always have to be a asshole?
@ 3:27 pm on 22 July 03
Today was supposed to be a fun day at the zoo but an interview that Summer's dad had quickly changed all that. :(
Needless to say NO ONE was happy and that caused a HUGE argument. Her dad started protesting how she's so spoiled and always gets her way, how we always have to do what she wants and who cares if he goes to jail *again* for being back in support payments.
In short, there was ALOT of yelling and he, big man that he is, decided it was all Summer's fault if he went back to jail. WHAT A FUCKING ASSHOLE!!.
First off, no one told him to quit the job he had. He quit out of the blue one night because he was tired of it. Since that time he has been unemployed and I doubt its a lack of skill that keeps him without work now. Its because hes too damned lazy to make the effort to go inquire if these places are hiring, hell even skimming through the Sunday paper is too much of a chore for him. He wont get applications and fill them out because "its a waste of time, they wont hire me anyway once they know I was in jail for back support".
But he doesnt even attempt to try either. He only does it when State is on his ass threatening to serve him papers for jail time. I dont understand why served papers make him step into high gear-- and yes, thats what happened. He found out from the caseworker that he will be served papers soon for a court date because of no payment since last year. Now, all these other court dates equalled into jail time. So, now that he knows that hes scampering around town filling in job apps like nobodys business AND today he got a call for an interview as we were heading out to the zoo. They said today and so that squashed the plans for the zoo.
I decided OK I will be nice and give him some interview tips because Im hoping he gets the job so he can stay out of jail. Because that only makes things alot more difficult for me to deal with in terms of antics from Summer. *Sigh*
She's so attached to him and she should be, thats her dad. But I dont understand how in a heated argument he can be so harsh and say hurtful things to Summer, i.e., her being the cause of him going to jail, etc. And even giving her the silent treatment. Ugh! I wish I wouldve never got involved with him, definetly wish I wouldve never fucked him and got caught up in the moment. But than I wouldnt have her and she is MY life. I wouldnt change what happened for the world because my daughter saved me, saved my life. She is my angel.
I wish he would grow up and mature and realize what a precious gift she is and that one day if he isnt careful she wont want anything to do with him because she'll be older & wiser and she'll know what he did and how he treated her when he gets upset. It will be enough for her to sever all ties with her flesh and blood. I only can hope he isnt already too late.
Anyways, thats been my wonderful day. :( The zoo has been re-scheduled for tomorrow morning hopefully free of fighting. Im tired of arguing. I just need some reassurance, understanding and love. Can I get some of that? Please?
Off to the interview. Wish him luck even though he is an asshole.
lol, Im glad I can laugh about shit. Lord only knows where Id be without it, six feet under.
Im out
xox
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