selfish bastard
@ 12:03 am on 03 April 2009
Listening: Bach - Minuet
Ahh, some good 'ol classical to relax me a bit. Trust, its much needed right now.
The boy and I got into it (what else is new?) about money. I'm not sure why he was worrying about it because today was payday and we still have a crap load from taxes left.
I mean he spent a few thousand on the truck alone and now it needs some minor maintenance, seriously what did he think, it would be free out of the kindness of the mechanic's heart? Get real.
And hes complaining because our daughters best friend took her allowance money and bought our daughter a ticket to the crappy Jonas Bros. and I told him that it wouldn't be right if we didn't pay back her friend. I mean seriously... it was very generous and that shows she is a great friend but its not expected and I would never take the money of a 14 yr old to pay for a concert ticket when we can afford it ourselves. So, the boy was fine with paying her back but because he feels were low on fundage he now doesn't want to pay the friend or he said our daughter will have to pay for it out of her allowance. I'm sorry but that's stupid. You cant go back on your word just because you're feeling like a cheap bastard.... which he is.
It proceeds to get worse when I mention I'd like to get a couple things, one of those things including a swing set for our son. We have nothing in our backyard for him to do and if I were a 3 yr old out there I'd be bored as shit and wanna come back in and watch cartoons. Yep, he bitched about all of that too.
Than he throws the whole me not working in my face. That was pretty much all it took for me to go into RAGE mode with him. I hate how he throws it in my face, sometimes outright other times subtly. What a cocksucker. Seriously, I have worked a lot and I have never had a problem with it. Hell, I like being self sufficient. But, when we had our son I went to a stay-at-home mom role which is fine if that's what you like but I HATE it.
I'm the type who wants to get out there, be doing something and not be tied to the house all day. Only problem is where we live we have no outside help from family because we live too far away but yet he refuses to move and I refuse to put our son into daycare because I don't trust them.
Last night he tells me he doesn't care if I'm not working because what I do at home with our kids on a daily basis is work. Yeah, I can agree with that but I was still insistent on me finding a job. He tells me it works out best this way since he works 12 hour shifts. Thing of it is, is I don't get any breaks away from the kids and the most he spends with them is a few hours and that's only on the weekends. I keep saying I need help, that I'm frustrated. He doesn't care. He gets all the sleep he needs and gets to do what he wants in his spare time.
Anyway, it seriously is marriage counseling or I'm out the door. Its bullshit especially when he also mentioned last night that since I'm not working I should go back to school. I'd kill to go back but how am I supposed to when he wont even help out with the kids? Or get up to watch them? What am I supposed to do? Bring them with me?
He is a selfish ass hands down. I keep on saying I'm going to get him a shirt that reads: Its all about me, me, ME. Because that's how he is. Grrrrr!
Alright, new topic before my blood pressure spikes and I croak at the keyboard.
I watched the final ER. I'm so going to miss that show. I watched it from the very first episode. Never missed one, even when I had my daughter I watched it after I had delivered her, lol. Thats dedication!
It was a good and I shed a couple tears throughout the couple hours. I'm not really sure what my Thursdays are going to be like now. I still have Greys. Thank goodness that was rerun tonight, heh.
Alright, Im outta here. Lates!
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